Dogs and Meat

"You don't put a piece of meat in front of a dog and expect him to say, no thanks I've already eaten"
No, you should expect him to bury it somewhere so he can sneak off to eat it as soon as he works up his appetite... duh

Indestructible Dreams/CPS

With TNT words and dynamite lies
they give him a cavern to build in
My sweet precious world, my Heaven
beauty and love in it's purest essence

My hands, they have bound and severed
without my heart, no ability to bleed
The muzzle intended to silence me,
Holds a lion of rage, raging river of pain

Unlimited power and stolen authority
a gift so obscene, holds only casualties
False allegations and unfounded claims
Justifiably allows destruction and pain

Unbreakable promises, now broken
Undeniable love, denied
Crushed and polluted, graffitied debris
Treasured remains of indestructible dreams

Burning House dedicated to my babies

Burning House by Cam

dedicated to my daughter and 5 sons whom I miss so much

I had a dream about a burning house

You were stuck inside I couldn't get you out

 I Lay beside you and pulled you close  

And the two of us went up in smoke

Love isn't all

That it seems I did you wrong

I'll Stay here with you

Until this dream is gone

(chorus)

I've been sleepwalking

been wandering all night

Trying to take what's lost and broke and make it right

I've been sleepwalking

Too close to the fire

But it's the only place that I can hold you tight

In this burning house

 

I see you at a party (in a picture) and you look the same

I could take you back

But people don't ever change

Wish that we could go back in time

I'd be the one (mom) you thought you'd find

 

Live isn't all

that it seems I did you wrong

I'll stay here with you

until this dream is gone

 

I've been sleepwalking

been wandering all night

Trying to take what's lost and broke

and make it right

I've been sleepwalking

too close to the fire

But it's the only place that I can hold you tight

in this burning house

 

The flames are getting bigger now

In this burning house

I can hold onto you somehow

in this burning house

oh and I don't want to wake up

in this burning house

 

I've been sleepwalking

too close to the fire

trying to take what's lost and broke and make it right

I've been sleepwalking

too close to the fire

But it's the only place that I can hold you tight

in this burning house

 

*lyrics in ( ) are my version of the actual lyrics

 

 

too my daughter, who I let down without realizing I was doing so. I'm sorry for ever allowing them the opportunity to hurt you and your brothers so much. I promise you my dear, I have only done as they have asked. until now. I cannot continue to have no contact with you. I believe you have blocked me from calling you, otherwise you would have heard from me. I love you, I always will, more than life itself. I am nothing without ya'll. If you wonder if I would feel this way, had I ever known another life besides being a mom, I can assure you, that yes I would. I chose to be a mom, I was not forced into it. I chose it over and over again, and I still do, everyday, even though ya'll are not with me. I live my life like ya'll will be home any moment. It's the only way I can continue to live with this extreme emptiness.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

  

 

My Prison of Pain

             My Prison of Pain
My body has become
  a prison of pain
Where life once begun
  only agony remains
stuck in a nightmare
  with no one to wake me
My memories alive all around me    
  Mocking my tears for what used to be
Longing to return to the days that have passed
  Desperate to escape what shouldn’t be
Yearning for my Stolen
  Loved with joy so blissfully
Gifts from God in Heaven
  Made by myself and Mine truly
From the Garden of Eden
  To Satan’s Jubalee
On my knees grieving
  To the Heavens I plea
Silence is broken by a desperate scream
  Oh dear GOD PLEASE
give them back to me!

Thief in the Night

           
                Thief In The Night
The snake in the grass
The thief in the night, 
The devils at the door, 
Blocking out all the light
I don’t want to go mom, 
It just isn’t right
I know baby I know, 
But there’s too many to fight
All these policemen, 
Armed with their guns, 
It’s just me and dad, 
And we don’t have one
I’ll tell them I love you, 
I’ll tell them they’ll see, 
Whatever I need, 
Is all that y’all do
They'll see it so clearly, 
They’ll know that it’s true
The best place for me, 
Is right here with you
Oh Beautiful angel, 
Sweet child of mine
I’ll get you home, 
It’s just a matter of time
I’ll never stop fighting, 
I’ll do everything I can
Baby I promise
You will be home again